Ideas?

I'm sitting at our little kitchen table waiting for my cake to be finished baking. The window is open, a slight breeze drifting in. I can see the (almost) full moon right from my seat. A tall pine tree stretches its arms in front, partially blocking my view. I smile, knowing how fragile this thing called life is, but also knowing how good our God is.

I went for two short walks today. The first to Dollar Tree to look for a box to keep my recipes in. And the second to buy ingredients for yummy desserts from Smart n Final. On both of these walks, I was surprised at how pleasnt it felt to be outside, just walking. I think I got in a better mood just by doing it. Even though both of these places are right behind my house, (literally. there's an alley in between them and my house) I normally drive because I'm a lazy American.

As I walked, I reflected on my trip to Kenya and recalled wanting to come back home and do something to raise support for the people I met there. I did not want to come back home and sit on my butt and not do anything about everything I saw. But really, I haven't done anything. I was hoping to come home, speak at my dad's church, ask people to donate, and send a fatty check their way. I was hoping to have a fundraiser, garage sale, or sell stuff, to make money and send it to them. Seeing as how it is the middle of summer and I have no job and no money, I've found it very hard to do this. One, because it often takes a little bit of money to start up a project that will make money. And two, I need money to support myself.

I've been stuck in this limbo of wanting to do something for the friends I met in Kenya, needing to support myself, and not knowing what to do about any of it. The answer is to get a job, right? I've tried. Not very hard, but I've still tried. I know I can get a job at my school in the fall, so I think I'm just going to wait for that and enjoy the time I have now, loving people and getting to know my church. In the mean time, I am a poor broke college student.

I think of myself as an artsy person. I paint, I sew and make pillows(might try my hand at quilting with my momma sometime in the future), I take pictures. I know if I really tried, I could do something with one or more of these and make money. I just don't know how. I've looked into a couple art galleries and what not, but nothing seems to really fit. Not sure why I'm writing about all this. Part of me needs to rant and get all this out there. And another part is secretly hoping that someone will read this and come up with ideas and partner with me to make them happen. Anything can happen right?