I got frustrated earlier this evening(really for no good reason... it's just been happening easily lately) and decided to get out of the house. I called my friend, fully intending to rant to him about everything but not wanting to let on to that until later in the conversation. But to my dismay, my phone died ten minutes in. So I went into the Starbucks I was parked behind, ordered an iced coffee with cream and sugar and sat down. My phone was dead and the only other thing I had to do with me was my journal. I started writing whatever thoughts popped into my mind. No matter how random, pitiful, weird, confusing. It all went down. I ended up with twelve to fourteen different topics. I was there for 45 minutes or so. My mind never stops.
Here's just a taste... or more like most of the meal haha
Marriage and how dreadful it's starting to sound, the cute guy reading the Ipad(or maybe it was a nook? I don't know much about these things.) in front of me and how I wished people still read real books, nice things people say, the fun night I had with Mel, my hatred for technology, how much I just want to be asked out on a date (Even if I say no because there's no way my body won't explode if that happens. My nerves suck.), how unhappy I have felt lately, the condition of our world, and how much I think about myself, and how little it does to make me feel better.
I came home and looked up some random crap. Found a website with wonderful info on...
Simple Lifestyle Changes!! Oohh Ahhh! A lot of it was actually very helpful, it's just the "changing" part that's actually going to make a difference. Can't just sit and think "O those are great ideas. I should do some..." and not. Time for change! Time to fight the lovely little depression demon that likes to haunt me a lot of the time. Yay.
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